so ... we learned today that both of the victims from the tornado a week ago were from our church. the first being the little 2 year old boy. the second being a mother/wife who died on thursday while cleaning up what was left of her family's life.
because of this ... and because our church has so many attenders that live in the area ... the series we were on was paused and our senior pastor did a special sermon today.
he started out his sermon by describing where he was a week ago - it was a normal sunday afternoon & he was sitting & watching golf. at one point he got totally annoyed that such a good tournament would be interrupted by what was probably another false alarm tornado warning. when he got the call minutes later that hugo had been hit so hard - and that a family had lost their baby boy - life was instantly put in perspective.
after a very emotional sermon ...one where i fought back tears THE ENTIRE TIME ... i've been challenged to remember what REALLY matters! to keep my focus where it should be. that could have been us. have i prepared myself for that? do i live my life knowing that every single second is numbered?! knowing that i have done everything possible to show my kids and stacey how much i absolutely adore them and can't imagine my life without them?! AND ... if every single thing that we had was pulled from us and we were left with nothing - would we be content because we know what's important?! i sure hope so!
every time i think of this family that lost their son, it makes me cry. PLUS ... their little girl is still in the hospital and it's not looking as promising for her as they once thought. this family has truly been stripped of everything! i can't even begin to imagine what that is like. our pastor told us this story today - he was talking to the dad about all that had happened and all that their family had lost ... and the dad's one wish was that they could find nate's teddy bear. (ok ... can i just tell you that is the point where i TOTALLY lost it!)
we put so much time into building "the perfect life". (or finding the perfect floor plan ... or the perfect school set up :) ha ha!! ) but it doesn't matter!!! all it takes is 30 seconds and it could be gone.
of course i still need to live life ... mine may not end tomorrow ... or the next day.
unfortunately i still have to make decisions.
but today just reminded me that in the grand scheme of things ... they don't really matter.
we're going to love our house regardless of what it looks like ...
ben is going to be fine no matter where he goes to kindergarten ...
and ... i WILL make it through this week of getting the house ready without going TOO crazy:)
life goes on ... we're in it together ... with God at the wheel ... and THAT is what matters!