Monday, June 14, 2010

believe ... now

you may remember a year ago (or so) when i gave myself a one word challenge -
i decided i really wanted to focus on the word NOW.

well ...
that is something i am still trying to do
AND
reading this book recently fit 'my word' PERFECTLY.



to give a quick background of the book if you aren't familiar -
jennifer is a mom of 2 that lives near us.
her husband, a police officer, was killed in the line of duty about 4 years ago.
since then, she has kept an amazing blog -
and has written this equally inspiring book.
the book talks about how she has dealt with grief
and
how it has affected the way she lives life now.

all i could think of as i read the book was -
this is perfect timing.

i WANT to be present in my parenting.
i WANT to be intentional in my relationships.
i WANT my love for stacey to be an absolute.
and
i WANT to be here NOW ...
i just need to be reminded :)

SO ...
tonight i decided to share one of my favorite parts of the book
because as i continue to live out my 'one word challenge'
this sums up how i am feeling -
probably better than i ever could ;)
and with summer vacation starting -
and a whirlwind of craziness surrounding me -
i need the reminder ;)

at the end of any given day,
i want the peace of mind to know that i am exactly where i'm supposed to be.
i want to live in the simple:
to live with smiles shared and love given,
to feel like i've contributed to the day,
even if my contribution feels small.
i want to know that i am valued and cared for,
and i want those i love to know that i value and care for them.
i want to see the better side of life,
not just the parts that make cry -
but the sides of joy as well.
i want to experience the moment and recognize it as remarkable.

most of all, when i go to sleep at night,
i want to know that i can rest -
not only because i am tired,
but because i've lived my day well.
i've lived the best i know how.

-jennifer silvera in her book 'believe'
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