one word ... maybe

some of you may have read over on elizabeth's blog about my one word challenge.

along with the project 365 was a challenge to find one word that represent what i would really like to focus on this year.

SO ... i don't have a word.

i know what i want - but don't know exactly what the ONE word is.

SO ... after reading this ... if you know ... please, let me know :)

for this year i want to spend my time on things that matter.

not necessarily learn to prioritize

because i am a great multi-tasker and i get things done.

that's the not the problem.

the problem is that i need to be more intentional.

i need to stop all of the mundane multi-tasking long enough to REALLY focus on the things i want to be doing.

for example ...

stopping long enough to suggest to the boys we play a game - not just be approached.

stopping long enough to snuggle, watch a movie, and allow myself to enjoy it (not thinking of all of the other things i 'should' be doing)

stopping long enough to bake - and REALLY let my kids help :)

there is a diagram that our church uses that i want to briefly describe.

picture a target.

in the center is

'what i'll die for'

(these are the core beliefs)

the middle ring is

'what i'll defend'

(these are things that matter ... but your opinion may differ slightly from mine and that is ok because it doesn't affect our eternal outcome)

and the outside ring is

'what i'm willing to discuss'

(and this section is those things that there is no 'right answer'. because of this, spending time debating and trying to get to the bottom of it might be fun - but really isn't worth the time.)

as a church, they want to spend most of their time in the center, some of their time in the middle, and not a lot of time on the outside ring.

this is how i want this year to be for me.

i don't want to waste my time getting caught up in things that don't matter.

i want to focus on the relationships that REALLY matter to me.

i want to make time for what's important and let the other stuff, that isn't, be what fills the gaps,

not the other way around.

life goes too fast.

and

i don't want to miss it.